Okay, well, i feel like complaining today. sorry for those of you who think i'm either an a** or annoying, but i just really feel like getting this off my chest.
lets start with how much i HATE my sister. For one, she has to argue with me about EVERYTHING. then, when she looses, she hits me and calls me a retard. of course, i can't fight back because then I get in trouble. she pushed me down the stairs on wednesday and snapped my wrist pretty mcuh in half, and then covered herself with "She fell!"
guess who beleived her?
EVERYONE
you know how ******** sick and tired i am of that? they always believe her. always. because she's younger than me. then, if i start trying to voice my opinions on what she wears or her music, my mom attacks me about it, and if she starts spouting how mcuh she hates my stuff, mom dosen't do s**t about it! i'm sick of it!
and now, there isn't even anyone to talk to about it. the councelor at school won't see me, we can't afford a normal privte councelor, and noone is ever on anymore! either that or they dismiss it and just don't listen to me! so i'm sitting here, alone, pained, irritated, and just plain ******** tired, with no one to talk to.
i'm just getting sick of it, i can't stand it anymore. i wanna go live somewhere else, but no one would ever open their doors to me unless it was one of my online friends, who live in other states. i don't have any friends here anymore, as they've all descided they don't like me anymore or talk to me only when outside of school, which is a rare occasion in itself.
at this point, i'm stressed enough to actualy get physicaly ill. i'm getting sicker and sicker by the day, and pretty quick i'll be coughing up blood and i the hospital. so if i disapear for a month, i'll be there.
no one will read this, i know it, but regardless, i'm starting to get sick of my life. it's not that i don't like it, i'm just tired of so many nasty things happening in it. i love my life, i love being alive, but i'm just getting really tired of people ******** it up for me.
thanks for all who actualy took the time to read this. I love you guys.
With love
~×Ame×~
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