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~Who said I had an easy life? who ever said that, tell me, so I can kill him~

"That sentence..caught my atencion when I wrote it down...because that's what I have always thought..my life was never easy..

yeah I sometimes had stuff I needed..but never a family who would recieve me with "open arms"...always been push around..'cause I could not choose..

Mello(Death Note) made...a courageous move when he fled...he knew it was gonna be hard, tough...painful..but still, knowing that...he left...because he had confidence...he believe in himself...

I always wanted to have that kind of confidence...I wanted to believe in myself..but..for some reason...I just couldn't...

And now...now that I can choose..now that I can make my own mistakes..I feel..happy..almost to cry..but crying because I feel happy..weird isn't it?

I know I'm by myself..in the house I am..they don't really need me..I do stuff to return their...."kindness"...but I knew from the start that I don't always stay forever..

I..will never have a place to call home..I just..it seems that I don't stay long enough to make it my own.."

A piece of my "diary-fotolog" since I have a fotolog..in fotolog.com..lol

is my spanish diary..everyone seems to coment..but I never return the comments..is just sad and..annoying when someone writes "oh I'm sorry you have that kind of life!" or "he really did that? oh poor you"

is..sick...in the bad way..I feel sick when I read those..

I...am just weird..that's why people kick me out when they have me in their house..

"Gomenasai..for everything..
Gomenasai...I know I let you down...
Gomenasai, 'till the end..
I never needed a friend..like I do now.."

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