It's funny when something is supposed to be between two people, but then someone else takes it as part of their problem as well. *sigh* I've had enough of defending myself to friends that should know me well enough by now and know my true intentions.. Also people say that I'm underestimating my friend.. No, that has never been the case.. I believe she can do anything she sets her mind to, but I expressed my care and worry about it the only way I knew how. Yet, even if its that only way I knew how and it was expressed to the one person that has known me the longest, took it the wrong way. Maybe I need to rethink some friendships.. Maybe I need to rethink my entire life dealing with friends. You know.. you really can't live your life happily without friends.. but how in the world is it good when they take everything you say the wrong way? And.. one of my friends is having a birthday get together and I don't even know if I'll even be wanted there. I was told something about a cook out and sleep over if some people want, but I haven't been told anything at all by the person that is actually having it. I just don't know this is going to turn out.. All I wanted was to put this s**t behind me and go on with my summer, but no... somebody else decided to be a part of it to and makes it more difficult.. as always.. I'll be happy to get away from home for a week when we go up to Mass. I doubt anyone will miss me here. Well, this is all I feel like putting. I'm tired.. tired of it all.. and how it ends is how it ends.
 SkylightRose152004 · Tue May 31, 2005 @ 02:02am · 0 Comments |
