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Have you ever felt like you were tagging behind two other people? You're sure that one person doesn't want you there, but is too polite to say anything. I don't like that feeling at all and I'm not the type to speak up. sweatdrop I wrote this because I was thinking of it, and I've been a third wheel quite a few times. I don't like bothering people without doing it purposely. (I bother people purpsoely when I'm hyper.) After a while, the person that didn't like you at first, thinks you're cool or the feeling that you aren't wanted grows to the point where you leave.
I remember when my Study Skills teacher told me that how I handle my problems now, will most likely be the way I handle problems in the future. My eyes widened slightly and thought "Dang..". I handle problems quite badly. sweatdrop I'm not logical nor reasonable. I'm not really me when something bad happens. I just don't wanna be happy or even pretend to be. Something quite horrible (or something I consider horrible) has to shake me right out of me, to be illogical. Oh well. sweatdrop I guess I should be stiff and emotionless. 3nodding Well, I have the stiff part down..At least that is what some people think. stressed Like my uncle..The man doesn't like me. I never smile around him..I WAKE UP AT 7 IN THE MORNING TO SEE THIS MAN A T CHURCH! stare Of course I'm not gunna smile..Then he makes a big deal of everything!! Like I do things to target him personally. I sometimes wanna throw a chicken bone at the man..Wow, I just did alot of thinking/typing....^_^ Thanks for tapping into my mind! It's nice to know someone would care enough to read this at all. If you did, leave a comment! ^_^ I doubt I'll get more than 2 comments. Hmm..I'm listening to Boyz ll men at the moment. *sighs* why can't all men be like the ones in the songs. xP Well, they drive you crazy like they are supposed to. Some suck! Yeah, you know who you are, Mr. I like making girls cry..There are lotsa pigs out there. All the fantastic looking ones with great personalities are either gay or taken. gonk There is this show where a woman goes out with 3 guys, she gets to choose one but the catch is (There is always a fricken' catch!!) one is gay, one is married, and one is single. -_- I bet the a** wipe is single. That's why he's single! Shows can be some retarded crap..OH! Speaking of retarded crap..Soap operas and Lifetime channels. -_- OH. MY. GAWD. My mum loves the stuff. I personally like ONE soap but that's only because it somehwat makes sense and I wanna see one of those girls beat the other's a** real hard..Because the actress plays as a b***h. 3nodding Well anyways...Lifetime movies are horrible. You won't believe what I say! These two people were kissing right, and when their lips parted, there was still saliva hanging from both of their lips. My mom and I reacted the same but I said eww and she said that's gross. 3nodding Good family times. Actually, we've had lotsa good times at the park. Put the bikes in the back of the car and all 3 of us go to the park and enjoy the day there. 3nodding Yup, good times. althogh the fountain water and the bathrooms were under suspicion because they were covered in gum..Darn kids..Swallow your gum like everyone else, lol just kidding but the water fountain is no place for gum..
*changes the subject* Well, I have alot of things I haven't done in this lifetime. A real pathetic one is the first kiss thing..I actually was about to get one once..But iit was odd and I slapped him...Here is what happened. Oh gawd, he was so cute. His smile was sooo gorgeous..I was int he 5th grade and my mominvited people from Columbus to stay with us. Well, after a day or two, I developed a HUGE crush on him and he wouldn't stop smiling. Well, my mom donated all our rooms, so we took sleeping bags and slept downstairs. They wanted to thank us so theyy came down and didn't bother turning on the lights, and said goodnight. He was hovering over my face and I thought I saw something and my hand met his face on accident. I felt so bad and I look back on it now and think, "DAMNIT!!". crying I mess everything up. Lord knows when my next first chance oppurtunity will come..Maybe 10th grade year. *sighs*

^_^ My thoughts all summed up in a long passage. Oh, and I hope you enjoy your day. No, enjoy your life. ^o^ You get only one to live..Unless you believe in Bhuddism..Then I can't say jack because I don't believe in it..*looks around the room* Well, thanks my literate peeps, for caring. smile
~You're loved. heart