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ugh;

i'm so stressed right now. I'm super realizing that i'm a super failure at life. My grades suck, and not just because i'm lazy and don't do my homework, it goes far past laziness and s**t like that. I have so many problems with my parents now. i think that after 17 years of living with them i've come to find out that they are seriously retarded. i know a lot of stupid people say, "your parents get smarter when you grow up" meaning that you won't understand your parents reasoning untill you are old enough to understand it. bull ******** s**t, my parents are seriously illogical and retarded. i don't think i could rant enough about them to even touch the surface of my hatred towards them. I know i'm supppose to give respect towards the two people who raised me from birth, but when you seriously ******** up at raising a kid and constantly throw in the towel on teaching them, yea, ******** you, my respect for you is nonexistance. And i'm so ******** stressed about school right now. My grades are ******** failures at life. i have Ds in majority of my classes, meaning i either won't be able to take the next step up in that class or i will epicly fail at life in general. Oh, and i hate it cause i've been trying really hard lately. i know that i should have been doing this all year, but A LOT of s**t has happened and it totally got in the way of what was the most important. I've been staying up late and working constantly on HUGE assignments, and doing so has resulted in an extremely stressful week. And most of the projects i've been whipping together have been using teh computer. so when i have a break like right now [i have to wait for Fireworks and Flash to download] i go on myspace and gaia to UNSTRESS MYSELF. ranting via journal is a VERY good way to make myself destress. but i FIUCKING HATE IT when i do some unstressing and my mom or dad comes in and starts bitching "your not doing your homework, you are on gaia and myspace blah blah blah" and they don't give me any chance to tell them my reasoning behind that. If you seriously can't have a conversation that includes reasoning and verbal communication something is seriously wrong with you. And plus when i'm typing VIOLENTLY into the keyboard my dad has to make those stupid comments like "op, theres she goes again typing away..." seriously dad shut teh ******** up before i stick this keyboard where it counts. and today he took away my phone cause i accidently put $20 extra on our bill by putting ulimited text on the wrong phone number. i tol dhim it was an accident and i'd never do it again, and i won't go onto the phone bill website ever agian, and he started lecturing me. and i was like, "dad, serioulsy don't lecture me i have a lot of homework i need to do and i don't want to get any more stressed out then i already am." and so he started lecturing me anyways and i tell him, "seriosly shut up, stop lecturing me i have homework i need to do" and he says "all i want is for you to say you won't do it every again" WHAT. THE. ********. so i started screaming at him and telling him to not ******** bother me anymore than he already was and he took my ******** phone away cause he is an old deaf ******** who can't pay attention in a conversation.



....that felt good to type out