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I went to a fair today.I got out of school at 12:30 p.m. on Thursday and went to the YMCA.There I hung out with Charels,Joseph,Courtney and Lorisa.We went to a park,hung out at the YMCA and had a good time.Let I remind you that we all are only 13 exept for Joseph who is 14.Two of the the people started talking about drinking and how they'd have to wait till his/hers parents left to get out the goods.The two remain nameless.Thrrough the day they talked about it on and off.We got to the fair at 5:30 to get the bracelets and wait for it to open.After a while the two nameless people started to talk about a concert.I thought it was a harmless concert that they would go to and have fun(or whatever).I stayed quiet,listening soon one of the two says"I hope he brings them."I raised my eye brow in couriosity but thought of his/her other friends or something harmless.The next says."I hope he does,I want to get high."At this point I was worried.They both had said they drink but this was too much.

How do you handle something like this if it's someone you couldn't live without?As I type this I see what it is doing to me.I've been mad and depressed all month but tonight I thought up ten ways to kill myself.I've lied to my parents about the fair and the fun we had when it was a night full of thought of suicide and a lot of depression and anger with myself and the world.