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Well, gonna post this on most places that I have a journal, so don't be surprised if you see this exact same entry someplace else.

College has been taking up a lot of my time, and though I do go online, I often find that I cannot muster up the energy to make the effort to go onto AIM/MSN and talk to people, or keep in touch with people on the phone. Sorry that I didn't call you back on my birthday, Diane, but it was probably not the best birthday I could have had and really, last week was probably my most busy week yet. I am not busy with activities or campus fun things, but homework. I am not the type to go out and party, period. But, really, even my art classes demand that a lot be done outside of class, and are actually what has been taking up so much of my time lately.

Pretty much I've just been hanging around on forums for contact with other human beings besides those in my classes, my roomate and the people on my floor... probably because they do not demand a quick response when discussing something. I AM JUST SO TIRED. I want to get on messenger programs, but I feel bad because I can never ever get anything done when I am chatting with people on them. I either have to take away from my relaxation/unwind time or my homework time to try and get on. I might get on tonight, but I have some English stuff to do. If you're reading this, Jackie, I've been thinking about the roleplay a lot... and you're probably pissed off like hell at me. Or maybe you don't care. ._.;

I am often not pleased to talk to either of my parents on the phone, because it always seems like they just call me to try and get me to do something ridiculous or to tell me I'm not doing something right. Well, the last part is mostly my dad. They say they want me to come visit home, but they don't want to come get me. When I went home for the weekend the weekend BEFORE last, before my birthday on the 4th, which I wish I could have been online for, I pretty much spent my "celebration" spending time with my grandmother, mom and dad. It seemed like it was more about my grandmother than me. I wanted to come home this past weekend, but I couldn't. I can understand that it's quite a long way for my parents to drive after working and everything, but it really doesn't help that my dad gave me the wrong time for the bus arrival, and I couldn't get a hold of anyone until later so that I could at least be picked up at the Elburn train station where the bus drops people off. Bleh. My mom is just pissing me off lately because her I miss you stuff just doesn't seem sincere. I don't think anyone really wants me around except the cat.

The one good note is that the game Okami is awesome and actually fun to play, and .hack//G.U. and FFXII are just around the corner.

/buries self in too much walking, too much effort to get food, videogames, and school work.