I am, a self-proclaimed 'fill-in friend'. A fill-in friend; what's that? It's someone who's a friend but no ones 'best friend'. If your best friend is absent or MIA then it's fill-in friend to teh rescue. We'll hang out with you till you get bored of us and have your friend back. We just wander around, going nowhere, meeting up with no one. You don't have plans so that if someone wants to hang out, its Fill-in Friend! We don't really have a close friend to hang out with, many times the fill in friend is just a loner(like myself) who just roams (the roaming loner, nothing more pathetic then a roaming loner). Or hangs out in the Library(I actually like the library thank you very much). But the fill-in friend job is a sad and lonely job, with barely anyone to keep you company,no boyfriend or girlfriend(that being a close female-sexed friend). I hate not having someone. I have a abandonment issues that I have, not gotten over, but grown use to; like my fear of large rotweilers(I was attacked and traumatized). I don't believe that I will ever get over being a fill-in friend who is constantly abandoned and forgotten unti, needed. I hate that feeling, I've had it my whole life (for I have been a fill-in friend ever since elementary, or more specifically, preschool;they said that they wanted to be my friend, they just used me so I am used to it) I've been used and discarded so many times that I have a permanent 'recyclable' tattoed on me, somewhere that I am unable to see, but everyone else is able to see it and they do as it says, and they don't even need to throw me away in the recycleable cans, or even the trash cans. okay, I wrote this at 3:30 in the moring so if anyone reads this(although I know that no one does) take heed of this warning at the end of the rant instead of the beginning. And remember, carpel tunnel is bad.
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