ughh, i tried so hard to make my old friend happy so i could feel happy, but he is so ice cold, i am too i guess, what the hell are emotions anyways, who needs them, all they do is screw things up. if we didnt have them, id never have been hurt just get up and dust myself off. well yea i do that, but it automatickly sinks and doesnt effect me until a tramatic thing happens, lik if my old friend said he hates me, which i feel he does. all i want is him to be happy, but he thinks im skeeming(sp?) and sneeking to be with him again. yes i would love that, im not going to lie, but i know better now. im nothing to him, right now, but soon i hope to be a good friend, i need to ughh, i need to stop thinking i need, poor him.... but he seems so unhappy... y cant i make his sadness go away, is it because im not a guy, or is it just me.... i always wanted to protect him.... crying but im failing, and maaybe he needs protection from me. i even tried to hook him up with some1 i have a crush on, just so hed b happy...im sorry...i failed you sweet heart...my poor poor friend...im so sorry... cry
 lil_qt_cat1 · Thu Feb 15, 2007 @ 07:25am · 0 Comments |
