Last night was prehibernation.
I was in charge of it this year. at least i was the feastocrat this year.
that is i was in charge of creating the menue and making sure that all of the ingrediants for said menue are got and bought and also making sure that each dish is put out on time. This year's theme for the feast was pilgrimage from england to (then) constantinople. and the menue looked like this...:
1st course:
chicken soup/ stew and dumplings
vegetarian soup
bear shaped rolls
apple pudding
2nd remove:
spannicapita (spinach/cheese quiche)
kakkava (bouillabaisse sort of)
Foccacio (gluten w/ 1 non gluten)
sugar frosted grapes
3rd remove:
dolmas
smoked duck
cucumber salad
humus and pita bread
ending dish:
Tuscan fruit cake.
...
over all i think it went really well. i was hearing from mom that there were no complaints about the food. that everyone was full.
when i asked people what they like most, they said "gosh....well...umm.....i don't know..all of the dishes were really good. there wasn't just one that stood out from the rest." and from what i hear that's a really good thing to say/hear.
*thinks* including myself i only had about 6 or 7 people helping out in the kitchen...that had to be one of the smallest kitchen crews we've had for this event in a while. and thinking back on it, Chris M. (Ciran) and I were the eldest two people in that kitchen...Rosemand said that for me to have so few people in the kitchen and ahving them being so young it was a great feet to be able to handle the feast like it was handled. *pauses* but in a way....i don't know....i just felt inadiquate all last night. i don't know how to say that i didn't feel quite needed last night. i didn't feel all that important....
Mom thinks it was because the kitchen was so far away from where everyone was eating that i had this whole disjointed sort of feeling because i had no clue what was going on i n the hall with everyone else.we had a total of 43 people there, including all of hte kitchen crew....a small intimate feast rahter than the 80 we're use to ...but hey...we had prehib this year...
there were a lot of people there...everyone was smiling, having a good time...chris was there too, but he had so many things on his mind he was kinda distant all night....but i have to say that i haven't felt that alone or out of place in a long time....and i don't know why i felt so alone...
I also had no idea that Nigel was so good with pep talks...*smiles.*
i was feeling so bummbed that i couldn't help out much more by the end of the night.
my knees were hurting so bad i was having troubles walking and i had been, literally kicked out of my kitchen so that i would sit down and rest.
i felt so horrible...not because people want to care for me and keep me healthy, but because i'm not EVEN 18 yet and they DO have to keep such good care over me like that....i feel so incompetant some times because of my disablities and shortcomings...
and do you know what he said?
" well look at it this way...there are a number of kids your age out there, a number of adults twice your age who are capable of doing things themselves...but they sit on their rusty dusties and don't budge...they dont have the self motivation or persistance to WANT to do what you just pulled off doing this evening...you're pushing yourself to the limit of your abilities. there are a lot of people out there who have no disabilities who don't push themselves at all..."
it made me feel so much better....i was still frustrated, but it did help make me feel better.
oh! and the other thing that didn't happen really this year? AMLOST NO LEFT OVERS!!
i can't remember a time where we weren't suffocating in left overs!
i mean! our fridge STILL closes. lol
anyway...i have to get on my way now...i'll talk to you all later.
Tootles!
 kindreanselkie · Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 09:38pm · 1 Comments |
