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Wow, things r really going good with the big mistake i made, but he's just the best, nver met or highly doubt ever will again meet a guy like him. he says hes cold but ya know if u teally get to know him, he isnt cold maybe sometimes but who isnt sometimes cold. lol i could write 1000 pages to him, the poor guy, with my long pms. I wonder if he reads them?? And omg, he always said he was a horrible artist but omg, he can draw such complicated things(im not giving clues to who this is tho i guess it might b obvious sweatdrop ) by just from memory (omg i cant spell) like i can do that with anime characters, but things like he does, just astounds me, he knows what everything is, where its supposed to go, and they look realistic!! He has so many tallents he puts me to shame, i mean im creative and write and draw. but hes smart, very artistic, very creative, a great counseller. he says he's egotistical, but really he isnt, well maybe a lil, lmao. i think i fueled his ego awhile ago, cuz i dont ever remember him being this way, but its good, it means he likes himself. he also has a stronge soul, i mean im so weak, but he is just, he overcomes obsticals that i never could, tho he really is helping me. and its like he makes ppl happy just by talking to them, well he does that 2 me. he had alot of negativity a few days ago, but its rapidly dissapearing, hes going back to the way he was, and im so glad. but i dont care if he bitches or does anything that hurts me, because i know he doesnt do it on purpose and i tell him that that coment kinda hurt my feelings. ok im going on to much about him, i sound like a kurazee stalker lmao, its just when ur life is horrible for all your life, then u meet some1 like him, not to sound dramatic, but he saved my life, and is helping me b a better person. i love him, but i dont say it because im scared he will feel sad or scared that im going to get my feelings hurt, or that he might get creaped out. but he prob wont, im just paranoid, im not used to nice guys, so i expect good things will end soon and i will feel alone, but he's stuck by my side through the times i tried to push him away, and make him hate me...because i felt i was bringing his life down, because i know he has a bright future ahead of him, and im just a needy whiner, lol he is the best kind of person in the world. not 2 mention hes the hottest, but even if he was the ugliest guy in the world, my feelings wouldnt change, because hes an acception to all the rules 3nodding i just feel so happy blaugh tho i feel sick, lol, but i always do lately.
-jean heart
 lil_qt_cat1 · Mon Sep 18, 2006 @ 10:17am · 0 Comments |
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