Yah im still watching it go down down down.... kinda funny.... things just arent getting any better and im slightly worried about my mental state now... heh... im not sure what to do anymore...
To explain my recent "die" rant.. I had found out that for the past five months, my ((former)) aunt and uncle were playing games with my family. See about six seven months ago my sister got drunk and well my ((former)) uncle hit her. I didnt stand on that very well and we got in a huge fight and i was blamed for the way everyone in my family acted. basically all the bad things... During that time they took my brothers away for two months, knowing it would really get to me and if anything piss my family off and make them mad at me... it worked and then my sis went and talked to both of them.... they told her that they forgave her.... as two more months went by they were fine with the rest of the family but me... I was still upset cause i rarely got to see my brothers and then my ((former)) aunt asked me to do a painting for her, brad, and the boys. I took it as a forgiveness thing and thats how they ment it to be...
Recently i found my brothers were beating each other... I talked to both of them, telling them they needed to respect each other and stop treating each other like crap... What happened? My ((former)) aunt blew up on me and we later found out that they were all playing this big game with the family. they did it so that they could see my great grandmother and since we have found out about it they havent come to see her at all and shes asking about them every day..... Well basically as they said they will never see us again.. therefor they have taken my brothers with them.....
CRAPPY
And today wasnt much better....
i found that i wont be having a great time at school.... because all it is doing is causing me pain... i was to the brink of tears... Why? because of my inguries from the car accident... It sucks...
Ok back on topic... So today my sister was being a b***h and all ((trash talking my friends)) and mom finally talked to my grandfather about the whole situation...
My grondfather doesnt plan to ever see us again... Why? because he doesnt feel like splitting vacations to see us..... Because our family is fighting....
ok ok.. i have decided i want nothing to do with BRAD or TAMMY... they are no longer my aunt or uncle.. but my brothers... i want to be in their lives... but until they are both 18 i cant.....
im going to end this rant because there is so much more i can say but im just not saying it... im just watching as my snow ball gets bigger and distroys everything
 Ishira Tsubasa · Wed Aug 30, 2006 @ 06:15am · 1 Comments |
