born march 14 1929 passed
september 13 2023 at the age of 94 i dont know all that happend but i heard it was cancer i loved my grandma though she was very religious and kinda fatphobic and didnt like it when i dyed my hair but those are products of her time she was also very generous loving creative quirky in the sence that she collected porcelain dolls haha i wasnt afraid of them since grandma let us play with them as kids but the room was spoky with out light on lol she was always thinking of others very family orianted and i just dont know how to process most people be sad but i know she had a good life many children i think she had 6 kids one she lost i dont keep up on that side of the family any more cus they can be pretty judgmental and toxic i secretly kinda follow my dad is how i found out ironicly the service is the same day as arizona fur con and everything has been getting in my way of going then this happends though i know i wont be able to make the funural dont know if i even would want to go ild have to see my other toxic family i kinda went over there and said my good bye already like maybe 10 years ago i always told people i know i have one grandma still with us and one i dont keep in touch with but i like to think shes still alive playing with dolls haha but now i know i was going threw phone contacts and saw her number i wish i called more at least. people always seem to regret the things they didn't do or didn't do enough of when somebody passes away but im pretty sure she knows i loved her god i wish i could just go to the azfurcon and forget my troubles for awhile ......i dont want to think right now i know it sounds selfish to want to go to a convention instead of funeral but i see funerals as a way for living to say good bye and more for living than the dead ive said my good byes and i know she wants all her family to be happy and religious though im not religious in the sence she wants at least i can be happy like she wants i love you grandma you will be missed and remembered in my heart
 redfoxgreeneyes13 · Sat Oct 07, 2023 @ 10:20pm · 0 Comments |
