song+ well the star wars theme is in my head xD
book+ Half-blood Prince =D
scent+ nah
quest+ dark halo @.@
upper+ love will be home soon
downer+ still sickish, panic attacky, no job ;_;
attire+ shawl and jammies
drink+ nah
Damndamndamndmandmandmadnmandmadn.
Well I called my job and I can't really come back. =[ I've just been gone too long, even with my doctors notes and everything. Arg. I don't blame them though. u-u;;; I didn't call enough. They figured I wasn't gonna come back. =/
I'll have to find someplace else .. =[[[ oi. It was a good place too, I mean, somewhere I could easily walk to. It was so stressful though and I was always anxious as heck going in. I don't want to mess up with peoples' kids and .. bleh. They don't even listen to me, I have no Authoritive Voice. sweatdrop I dunno.
It just came at a really bad time, since Ryuu needs a break from working so much, and Rand just yesterday decided to live with us again. >_____< He and his girlfriend had some religious conflicts where she wouldn't be with him if he didn't convert to her type of Christianity. o_O;;; Oi.
Anyway. He's already being loud and noisy and argumenative with mum. >_<; I wish he could just relax and not be so impulsive and GRR ARG at everyone. He doesn't have a job anymore either. stressed
I've starting to get better .. still kind of sneezing and coughing and such, but not too bad at all considering. I did have a panic attack when I came back from the doctor (I think the meds they gave me caused a reaction or something) .. so since then I've been feeling really drained and ... mental. xD
Making sure to take my zoloft everyday now. I really need to go to JPS and get something for anxiety. We might go tonight .. I dunno I just feel really on edge about going outside. Agoraphobia. >_<
You know, I REALLY wish I could get some ambien. It let me sleep at night, but before that it had the weird effect of sending this rush of euphoria to my brain. I tended to hallucinate and get overemotional, so mum stopped letting me have it. But it sure as heck got rid of the panicky feeling. I just felt LOVELOVELOVEEMOTIONCRYHAPPYJOY .. and then zonk, out cold. xD I do miss that medicine.
We watched the Making Of Star Wars dvd today. xD It was good. I've been watching waayyyy too much Star Wars stuff lately. xD
 The Viscount · Mon Jun 19, 2006 @ 11:30pm · 0 Comments |
