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I was with this guy for a year and a couple months. I thought he was the one. Two to three months before we reached our one year anniversary things got tough and I wasnt happy. We pushed through thinking our one year anniversary would save us. It didnt. He suggested something when we went on our date that ruined the mood. I was on the monthly terror and it was hurting so much. He wanted me to go with him to keep him company on the way home but I was curled up in bed in so much pain. He was being selfish and he kept trying. At some point after the one year anniversary we went to a school dance. The school dance was horrid because he kept trying to pressure me into stuff I didnt want to do and tried making me by saying hoochies would do grind on him if I didnt, what the hell? Anyways, things just got worse and worse so I talked to mom. That was sorta rare because he had pretty much cut me off from everyone because of how needy he got.. Soon enough I got the courage to tell him that I didnt want to be with him anymore. He got pissed at me and told me he hated me. Later, he apologized and tried we tried to be friends. It was so difficult. He kept bringing up depressing stuff and then would apologize. He would say he wouldnt do it again yet he did. He kept doing it. It was so hard trying to be his friend. Eventually soon after we had a fight. I was holding back until he said we were being "brutally honest" because that was my key to be brutally honest. We pretty much told each other to f- off. He later tried to apologize but he crossed the line and I was done. He became obsessed and he cant see his flaws. He wouldnt leave me alone and I refused to answer him because I was done. He doesnt see his obsession but isnt that obsession in itself? Im working for my future now but I have a surgery to take out my lipoma (tumor) on my back. Its on monday the 7th of January, 2013. Starting my new year off with a surgery and soon to be huge scar!! XD Yay me! Btw dont judge me and also.. ---- My mom once told me " There is always three versions of every story: one persons view, the other persons view, the outer view that is unbiased."