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Right now in my life, I'm not sure what to do. I know that I've mentioned this mental block that's come to me since my graduation, but I feel like it's getting to me more and more.
I don't like sitting on my butt like every summer because unlike the previous years now this summer is "life". I don't have school after the summer months unless I enroll into a college. Many of my friends have already gotten scholarships, gone to orientations, and/or have jobs. I want to enroll into college after this summer but like an idiot I was lazy and only now am I really trying to get accepted. I haven't looked very hard for any scholarships for tuition, I may decide to take a semester off to find a job and work up the money. If I do that, then I'm not sure how the semester system will continue on for me after that. The college that is both convenient and cheaper than most is also very popular among newcoming students and not all can be accepted, especially this late in the registration period. On top of that, it's only a two year school and I wish to transfer to a more expensive, still very popular, yet farther away college. The degree/job that I really want is not the easiest one at all, which means that it will have to be a side thing rather than a main thing. I'll need the rest of my life to come ahead of it in the beginning.
To even do that, I need to have a driver's license, have a fixed car, and then a job. I have a permit right now, so I only have to learn how to drive but I'm procrastinating about that as well.
Added to that there's the res of things: life as defined by the world right now. Getting a job, making money, getting a house, paying bills, getting cool things, retiring + the one that I love is factored into all of these plans as well, and all maintained under a standard of living that is comfortable, affordable, and gives satisfaction.
There's also a tiny bit of uncertainty and wonder that I have about a dream-world. There's responsibilities and risk involved. But to start all of that, I have no way to start it. Gee-Dee Life. =
--Ty
 Ty Gwynnia · Sun Jun 17, 2012 @ 05:09am · 0 Comments |
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