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This is like the worst day ever! |
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Journal:
First, I have a test. That's fine i can study for it. Nerves rack me all morning. I can deal.
2nd, I get MAJORLY frustrated in math, None of the exercises i do come out right, and I'm positive I'm going to Fail the next test, which is on monday and I really can't seem to make the exercises right.
3rd, I get really emo during Math, Comparing me to my sister, Quite possibly the WORST thing i could ever do. It's like a sin; me comparing myself to her. though i manage to suppress my emoness during school hours.
4th, I get a missed call from home. "must have been my sister' i think and give her a call, "maybe she needs me for something' i think hopeing to be useful. MISTAKE. She only called to scowl me. Because i didn't take a book to grandmother's house for my cousin, who wasn't even there this week. I only wanted to give it to her in person see?
5th, I get all depressed and angry after her call, (She hung up on me BTW) and use my phone to try and vent my feeling onto you Journal. But, when i finish and press 'submit' It doesn't! and that makes me even MORE frustrated. and makes me cry even more (yeah, i cried while i was venting, SHUT UP!)
6th, I manage to seem normal, to everyone, Happy and cheerful as usual, when i get home and My sis threatened my sanity. Thankfully mom was there.
7th After watching a little Soup opera with mom and my brother (weird he wasn't playing Black Ops) I take my laptop to my room to Finish painting this drawing of Az and Jack.n When i'm barely even started the whole tablet/laptop starts going nuts. and before i knew it, the laptops mouse pad stopped working. AGAIN.
And now i can't seem to get it to work again. I'm afraid dad is going to have to reset my laptop again, and that im going to lose all my different works on my laptop. And i can't back them up to my pendrive, 'cause its almost full. WHAT IF THERE"S NOT ENOUGH MEMORY?
Am i going to have to sacrifice work? or the things in my pendrive?
I don't know what to do, I just wanna cry, 'cause i read today that when someone is upset the brain works overtime to create hormones and chemicals and stuff and that we cry to get rid of the excess chemicals/hormones in our body and that's why we feel better after crying and i'm sick of this headache and tear rimmed eyes, that don't let me see the computer screen, if it's not with blurry vision.
 Raia Arimary · Sat Feb 05, 2011 @ 02:07am · 0 Comments |
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