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So I decided on write this event down even though it has been weeks.
I believe it was the 19th of Feb. When we all knew my Big "Brother" was leaving for Romania for two weeks. He's back now. And all is well. :3
But I went to chruch with him just so I could hang out with him and he wouldn't be lonely. Now, those who know me know I don't have a religion right now. I'm lost, and I left that religion so going to chruch is already awkward. But he didn't know that everyone except one of my sisters still thinks I am a Christian. So after we went to what were the leaders of the church so they could pray for a safe trip. It was in the back office and was dimy light so I had a bad vibe. But then, they told some story about how they have been praying for him ever since they heard about and etc. So they were three women. One skinny, one with some meat on her not much but more than the other, and a last that was very obese. She talked very deep and stern while the others were sweet. Now, they brought him in the middle and begin to pray as they had their hands on him as did I. Each one prayed. The first two were sweet and gentle I felt nothing from them. But the last spoke so viciously and meanly. I lifted my eyes to her in fear, and then, she began to pretty much yell about keeping the demons and evil influences away. And that is when she raised her head eyes seemed to be on fire at me. She was speaking about me it seemed. Did she know? Could she tell? If anyone I'm with anyone according to that religion it would be with Lucifer. But it was frigthening so put my head down. Every time I would lift my head and look at her, it was during her prayer about keeping away the demons and evil, and she would be looking at me and almost seemed to be yelling at me.
I was traumatized.
Not only did it feel like a cult in the dimmly-light backroom with a circle of hands apon one, BUT I was looked upon and judged like a demon. I hate that feeling of being judged, and I can always feel it.
So yeah, that was very interesting. gonk
 Nuzumi · Fri Mar 10, 2006 @ 11:35pm · 0 Comments |
