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The Good, bad and Ugly
Just a little something that I've wanted to share with everyone.
It's good news for me, and I'm hoping that it'll be good news for you guys too.
As you all know I've had a very hard time at work. The hours are long, the workload
is extremely huge, my faith in what I can do has gone downhill. I sometimes come home and cry because I'm no longer enjoy my career. it's taking too much out of me, and I just can't handle it anymore.And not to mention if fear of my life, my families life, and my real life friends.
I needed a way out, a way to make me the happy person that I once used to be.
You guys see me as a happy girl most times, but what you don't realize is that I hurt badly on the inside, and that'll probably explain why I wouldn't talk or post sometimes. I'd have a very bad day at work, and then I'd take it out on everyone. Because I didn't want to bring that sadness with me, I prefer to stay away from anyone and everyone, when my state of mood isn't the best.
So a few months ago, I applied at my old job that I once used to do, before I took up being in Law Enforcement, just to see if they'd take me back. As I found that it wasn't as stressful, and easier on me. To my surprise they agreed to have me back, because the experience that I had previously, and the customer service training, was enough to convince them that I'm the person for that job.
They told me that I could start within the next few days of applying back with them. And that was about 2 months ago. I actually told a few close friends on here about this, under the condition that they don't blab it to others, because I didn't want the attention and all the questions, I wanted to be left alone. And also needed time to see if my new job would be suited to me after all these years.
So with all this in mind, I'd like to share with everyone, that for these past two months or so, I am no longer a cop. Phew! And I'm an Admin in training, in a Department store, as that was my previous job. I know it's a shock to most of real life friends, as seeing me as a cop, and then onto a Department store is a huge change.
This wasn't an easy decision, and it took so much out of me, to actually come to a conclusion as to whether to take it or not. It was the battle of the good and bad inside of me, trying to take over my whole universe. It's something that I just can't explain, and probably never will.
But I want everyone to know, that I honestly didn't want to tell everyone, at the time, because as you can probably imagine the amount of PM's and comments and questions that would have bombarded me. And I just couldn't deal with it. I also wanted everyone to know, that I'm the happiest that I've been in ages, and that's all I'll want. biggrin
PS, if you're going to read this, please remember to at least comment too. sweatdrop
 Princess-Orphelia · Mon Apr 12, 2010 @ 10:10am · 9 Comments |
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