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	Nya's Randomocity Reads? * . *
	Nya's Randomocity Reads? * . *

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Well, I'm not sure if she'll read this but if she does then... Yay? I guess...? ._. Ok, so my songs were written for a girl that I'm kind of in love with.... Except the Winter one. That was just random. xd But any way.... We're kind of best friends and I think that's why she's so.... Distant when it comes to the affectionate part of the friendship. I'm a lovey type of person by nature and even if I didn't like her like this I'd still be the same. But she's more... Affectionate? With our other friends. Everyone else.... Makes me sad a lot to watch, you know? I know she doesn't mean it but still.... ._. When we first met and stuff and before I told her how I felt we would like cuddle and stuff 'cause that's just how I am. But now... There's no cuddles. I miss those days.... ._. I cuddle with everyone of my friends and she's the only one that I don't cuddle with. Well, the only friend that's as close as she is anyway.... Everyone else I hug. We hug though. I don't know... Maybe it's my self conscience saying you know "Oh maybe she'll feel weird if I do that or maybe she won't like it or something" and then I stop... Or maybe it is her. Maybe it's both of us....? I don't know.... ._. Still makes me sad though.... I've almost cried several times throughout typing this, by the way. I'm just emotional like that. sweatdrop I mean, there's some kind of love there, but I know it's not the kind that my heart wants. ._. Or at least, I think I know... Bottom line is, I just wanted to get this out since I don't usually talk about this subject. And since I'm braver when I'm typing... heh Maybe she will read this... Who knows. I usually keep these things bottled up. No one except 2 people know exactly how much pain I'm in about this subject. But you know, I'd rather be in pain and wanting than be away and killing myself. ~ heart Nya P.S.: If you're reading this, sorry if it made you uncomfortable... Or sad. Don't be, I hate it when you're sad. heart Hhymn · Tue Nov 03, 2009 @ 01:43am · 0 Comments


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◤Call me: Nya or Hhymn

Age: 30

I am: An artist◢

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