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worst f u c k ing day of my life......today i was working and begging my mom to have my good friend sarah over and finnally my mom gives in and allows here to come over and all of a sudden she cant come over cuz one person might be comming over. MIGHT! i dont even know 4 sure and so what if shes gunna b there its not she will hurt sarah or anything but its w/e sarah just doesnt really wanna hang or anything she just dislikes me and stuff so yea. she must not love me as much as she says cuz from this point i cant beilive her cuz like 4 a while i beilived her but after today i just dont know. i mean liz only commented on her bad attitude and such and then sarah was all cool with it 4 a while then today she just cant even b around her but its w/e none of the sacrafices i have made for sarah are good enough she just doesnt love me anymore since i would do anything 4 her and she just doesnt wanna hang cuz liz might come over. idk for sure though. but like i said its w/e. but im not going to do something mean to her bak cuz im more mature than that so if she is up for something else then ill go with her but im sure she wont care about the blood i have spilled 4 her and she wont ever care maybe some day she will love me but i dont. i mean she says she does but i think she is just saying it cuz doesnt wanna make me sad or w/e but if she is really done with me she should tell me u know. instead of lead me on a string cuz i get in trouble to much and beg and pled to much to dised just cuz someone she doesnt might b comming over. she might love me but i dont know turning me down after i need her most is just heart breaking. 6 days till my gaia is gone ima miss u gaia