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your cold words
demanding that i go
and in an instant
i don't see you, Jon
i see the other
a man with your name
his averted gaze
telling me i'm nothing in his eyes
gliding through the hall
away from me
moving on
i blink back to us
looking at the floor
ashamed of my past
but still i ask
you reply, impartial
so out, i dash
trying to look sucessful
like a businesswoman
is how i want to appear in this moment
intelligent, beautiful, confident
but i don't see you
i see her
my babe
my cherry night
my secret from last summer
polite and in a whisper
telling me goodbye
leaving me shattered
for she was my life
crashing into the circle
i limply mumble hi
but they do not notice
as i sigh
i still don't see you
but i hear your voice
your tone
wanting that i leave you alone
but still seeing her
i reach for my phone
instictively pushing her numbers
but she does not care
and now the tears come
knowing she is not aware
of us
our friendship
she thinks you're him
well he sees me too
but my eyes have changed again
i finally see you
do you even know you've hurt me?
would you even care?
i want to call out as you pass
but you act like i'm not there
what does all this mean?
is it all in my head?
politely i will leave
as you asked
but when i return
we will pretend
that nothing has changed
between us
as long as we're ok
this will dissolve
as a mere memory
this is all due
to only one thing
my fear, eternal
of losing you
like i lost them
longshore
and juju
please... not you, too...
Jon.
 Redbird027 · Sun Jun 07, 2009 @ 09:02pm · 0 Comments |
