Mood ~Still the same calm cynicism with a hint of whistfullness~ Music ~Peter Gabriel-Loved to be loved~
The earth and fire are warring within me. One wants one thing and the other wants something completely different...but neither can have both. Its one or the other. And this isn't something that is something to take lightly. What am I going to do? Ride out the tempest until I can see what path I need. But nothing makes me happy....and I wonder...Is there really a sun?
I'm in a mood that makes it look as though I want no one around me and I want nothing to do with anyone...but inside its the opposite. Can there ever be someone to see me as I am?
I need something to dedicate my life to, as pathetic as that sounds. I need something to consume me in its workings. Something to take my mind off of everything. I just need...SOMETHING...I don't care what particularly...So far I've gotten away with having books consume me but they can only last so long. My dreams are making me a slight bit uncomfortable and about now I would like to strangle my subconcious given the chance. The books I read are not helping either...but I cannot think of a book that wouldn't...not even the dictionary....O god I'm pathetic..............Would anybody be willing to just kill me now? Raziel?
Paranine · Sat Nov 20, 2004 @ 12:22am · 8 Comments |