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People always ask me "why the long face?" or "why so sad?"or "why are you so depressed for?"
And I answer "I'm not sad". "My face is stuck that way" or "It's nothing". But it is something. People are raised certain ways and you can't change them. I learn it the hard way. I know there are people who can't control themselves because they have a disorder. But for everyone else who is perfectly sane. They have no excuse. They were raised that way. And I try to help them change. I'm not asked to but I try to. When someone does something bad. It's everyone's responsibility to tell them that there wrong. And when I try to help others they push me away. And then it happens to me. I was always ignored as a child. Everyone said they loved me but never showed it. When ever I would go to them and ask "Why?" I am given a present. When I was small I thought they were showing me there love. But no. They just wanted to fool me with fake happiness. And when I saw through there little plans. Class mates ignored me as well. So I was all alone and put into my own little cold world.
So why do I feel like everyone hates me? It's because it's true. At school I was small, I was bullied, And I was alone. Now I'm older. I have seen people in love. I seen out of love. I have met fear in the face. And many other people have as well. I have felt pain for a long time. And I have just entered a new area and about to go to another. I am still bothered by others but I learned how to make a happy cute joyful smile out of my pain.
So "Why the long face?" "Why so sad" " Why so depressed?"
When you ask this every time my heart cracks. But I always smile. Even when I'm down. But don't worry I get the last laugh. I always do. But still. Now even today I cry from pain. But when someone else sheds a painful tear. I will understand how it feels to hurt inside. When someone dies,Broken heart, or anything else in this world I can relate to what your feeling. So why am I an out cast when you are not? It's because I lead my own crowd. While many others follow one.
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 TheForgottenSiren · Tue Jan 06, 2009 @ 12:39am · 0 Comments |
