It's the day after Christmas, and I've been on Gaia for years now.
I've made a lot of good friends, but unfortunately haven't kept any of them really. I haven't talked to anyone from the foxhole (my first hangout) in probably two years or more.
My sister is leaving tomorrow for Portland to work at a famous barn for horses. It's nice to have her gone for the week, but I'll miss her as well.
Anyways, I miss talking to people here. Gaia is no longer friendly as it used to be. I found a site called Roliana. It's a lot like Gaia used to be in the beginning. But I haven't really made any friends yet. And it's really hard to earn gold. Just like Gaia in the beginning. I remember when it took days to earn 100g. Now, it's a matter of seconds.
You know. I used to have more friends in "real life" in middle school. Now, I just have a couple of very close friends. It's kinda lonely...
But, I'm so busy I haven't really noticed how lonely it is. But now I finally have sometime to relax I've realized that I am fairly lonely.
Some people have suggested I need a boyfriend.
I don't really think I do, because I'm tired of telling them what to do.
They just don't even care about me, I have to ask them out, or ask if they want to go to a movie. I'm never asked...
Lately, this guy likes me... and he's actually asking me if I want to do anything with him. But I don't really want to, because he acts awkward around me. It's like he never knows what to say. I don't like it, because he is so preoccupied with thinking about something to say that it doesn't feel like he's really all there, if you know what I mean.
I guess there comes the saying... "Be careful what you wish for". And it serves me right... But I wish that I could just find someone to spend a little time with, because even my friend that used think boys have cooties, has had a boyfriend for almost a year. And my other friend has had the same boyfriend for two years. I've been without a boyfriend for a year and a half, and before that I had a relationship for a year and a half.
I want a boyfriend, though I do not need one.
I want a guy that can ask me out on a date, not that waits for me to ask him out.
I want a guy who is confident, and doesn't have to waste our time together just to think of what to say.
I want a guy that can bring out the best in me, and actually enjoys my presence.
I want a guy that my friends like, and allows time for them.
I want a boyfriend.
 Amster · Sat Dec 27, 2008 @ 01:00am · 1 Comments |
