Soo, despite all of my problems lately, things got bad.
My eyes are blinded by tears, and they were for a lot of the day. It's not every day you wake up and the first thing you read is:
Wrists hurt. I feel dizzy. Gonna lay down.
Or something along the lines of that. Then, that person disappears.
Now if you know me well, and you have to know me really well, you'll know just how much I stress and worry. And all ady today, I was worried. I was scared all day. I eventually cried. A lot.
And if you know me even better, you know I don't cry anymore unless it's over a certain 'you'. And today....
I cried.
I'll admit it, the worry and scared feelings consumed me. I had a headache from P.E., and then my tummy hurt. It's been hurting for a long time. So I broke down in spanish. The teacher had me take some stuff to the office to get out for few minutes. And I wiped the tears from my eyes, and acted normal....whatever normal is.
So yea, it just wasn't my day. And I dunno what's going on, but my chest hurts. Like someone hit me. It's an off and on pain, and it barely happens. No coughing or anything, so I'm sure it's just me overthinking things.
But still. I walked home, and I was fine. When I got inside my house, I opened a Christmas card from family, read it, and broke down. It was the typical card, happy holidays, love you, keep in touch, let's do dinner sometime.
But this card was different, this one had an extra little something. It said: Let's do lunch as a family, we're engaged now.
I closed the card, and was really happy. I'll have a new aunt. But for some reason, something inside me clicked. It snapped. It broke.
And now it won't fix.
 nangal · Wed Dec 03, 2008 @ 11:27pm · 0 Comments |
