what is this feeling deep in my heart? it hurts...but its not love..its a sharp pain that wont go away...it feels like its saying "i hurt for him but i hurt cuz you let him go" what dose this mean? i have the depression... i feel like killing my self and yet would it be worth it? to let the pain go away? to let his image leave my head? to let him go if i were to see him walk away i would cry if he were to see me walk away he would look away...what is this pain? if its not the pain of love then what is it? crying crying crying
i have had this pain for as long as i can remember and it wont go away nothing i do will make it leave...i smile when i shouldn't i lough when its not good to and i say im ok when im not...the pain in my hart..its to much for me to handle..what am i to do? to get ride of this pain? i giggle when i want to cry...i lough when i am going to kill my self...so some of the pain i feel is that if i did not learn to laugh at my self and smile all the time i would be dead...but who would care? who would miss me?...i feel like no one would...like i sead the pain in my heart is to much for me....cuz its not the pain of love...its not the pain of being betrayed...what is this pain i feel? what dose it mean?... when i think of the pain.... i feel like im going to die and i dont need to love someone to feel this pain it comes and goses...but when it comes i want to go...i want to leave the world and just die already..like i sead who would miss me? and the pain is to much to bare any longer..what if this is the last thing i sead? who would care? who would miss me? who would say dont leave the world like this oor something like that? i help thos that need it...i hold thos that need it...i protect thos that need it...but what about me? people hold me...they say they will help me...but when the time comes...were are you then? i am siting here typing this from my heart...and yet who would care? maby this wourld would be better off with out me...i think i might cry for the first time in 2 month's this is the pain i have to live with every day...and nothing i do will make it go away... crying crying crying crying crying crying crying
by:kitty crying
 Chii_Jones7866 · Sun Oct 26, 2008 @ 11:12pm · 0 Comments |
