Mood: depressed still - I turned them all against me Listening to: Save me - Remy Zero Thinking about: My dream last night Wanting: The butterflies to go away
Cry. Is pissed for some reason. I think it was me. I can't be sure either, she wont talk to me...I want to hold someone close and feel what they feel, just so I wont feel this I can't handle it man. I hate myself for everything I've done. What if they all leave? and never come back? what then?! I'm panicking. I don't want to be alone! though....maybe that wouldn't hurt people as much.
I really need to stop with these thoughts, because they are getting me agitated more then I already am. I can't stop! Man...I hate myself this week.