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There are so many times I would sit in my room and cry over the most stupid things. Like sometimes I cry because I wish I had a better family, ones that love each other, and accualy care.
Other times I would cry because Im not who I wish I would be. I wish I was 150-ish and had a georguse body... I wish I had white eyes and my skin was as white as the snow. My hair was jet black and My face was captovating. But beauty is wasted on those who dont deserve it (Most of the time.)
My tears are something that I try and hide, but Ive learned that its ok to cry to those you love. I dont want to lose my loved ones, but it seems that If I would just leave that there lives would be that much better.
I cant describe the pain Ive seen in peoples eyes when I have failed. Those eyes were something I never wanted to see, but... Its all I truly get anymore.
I dont want to be a burdan to anyone, so all I truly want to do is vanish... For I could go somewere and never been seen or mess up another life. But... I would miss my brother, my cousion,..... And my penguin....
Times are hard now, you never truly know what is going on. I find myself getting lost so much that its less painful to just stay down then try and get back up. I just guess I have lost my path so many times Im just going to sit under a tree and wither away.... Its not so bad, to just let time pass you by as you watch those you love live and die....
My thoughts are but those, and I dont care if anybody knows. Therefor, Here they are..
Pain,hate,love,and shame.... Those are my feelings that I feel normaly, and sarrow is one that seems to creap up when I least expect it. Mabey if only Suzie were here... Things got a little better but then smashed into the grounp. There starting to pick up but I fear that they will only smash again...
Why couldnt I have been the one in the car instead of her... Sometimes I sware I see her... I just wish I had someway of knowing what it is she is trying to say...
All-In-All
These are my thoughts...for now...
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 ~`Nolee_Damness`~ · Fri May 16, 2008 @ 01:36am · 0 Comments |
