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First
When it snows I would go out without shoes no jacket and dive into a pond. Then as the snow picks up I would get out and lay under a large tree. I would lay there till the snow covered my body and froze me so that I would be but a statue... Lost within time...
Second
I would lay in a pool of water as I sliced my wrists. I would do it at night so that no one would even think I was gone. The blood would turn the water red, and I would just before I died get on one of those flotie beds so that when they found me they could see me perfictly.
Third
I would make a pool full of glass and needles and what ever sharp objects I could find and put them in it. I would take off most of my cloths but my undies. This way I cut more and bleed more. I would pore salt all over the pool, for salt in an open wound is very painfull. I would get in the pool and roll around so that my blood was everywere, covering every inch of the pool and so my blood would be on the glass. I would do this in the morning so that when they found me the glass would glow with the suns rays an evil red color, stained with my blood.
Last
I would go to the school I use to go to, since I grad soon it will have to be when class is going on and I would have to sneek in. I would put a noose in the gym on the highest beam. I would drop a letter as I jumped with it around my neck. My body would have cuts all over it so that my blood would cover the foor beneth me. The note would answer why I jumped, it would say "YOU" On it so that everyone knew that I died due to the damage in my heart that built up over time. Mabey then they would get the message that Ive been saying all this time....
BUT
I would have to say good-bye to some people...
Kim (My Cousion/BFF/Sis): Know that this world is a bad place, but you have what it takes to make it. Your one of the few that I shared my dark secrits with, and I know that you can take what life throws at you.
Alex (Lil bro): All this time you were right, but I guess it took me too long to relize and find out how to defeat my demons. I know you will do what you set your mind to, So get off your a** and do it. Live life...
Eric (My pengin/Bf/Friend): .....I know you will do great things, your ment for better things in this world. Know that I love you and my soul will always be in you heart, your the reaper of it. One day you will have beautiful kids, and if you ever go to there rooms and see a ghost like presence... Dont worry... Im just kissing them on the forhead and tucking them in. Dont give up out there, because I couldnt give up on you. One word is left for me to say"Saranara" And if you dont remember it, it means. I love you, be good, Calm down, I'll see you soon, Live long, My lover, My everything, and... Good-bye....
NOTE: This is not a death note its just my thoughts....
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 ~`Nolee_Damness`~ · Wed May 14, 2008 @ 02:52am · 0 Comments |
