Hello all journal readers of mine...today is something I'd like to tell you..........I'm honestly not happy about this, but I want you all to know it..... "...I've been thinking like this for quite a few collective months now... I have no reason or clue as to why I'm living... I'm not as happy or optimistic as I was when I was younger.. I seem and even look depressed at one glance..
Naturally, I'm quiet and keep to myself mostly...but I also like to have some attention when I'm feeling down..Sometimes I get it, if my friends are paying attention to me, but more than half the time they aren't...I'm not stereotyped into being an "emo"...my own sister calls me a prep for the most part........one of my friends claims that I have ADHD as a joke.. I have no reasons to cry...I've had a pretty good life..nothing too sudden.. Except today, as lunch period was over. I was walking to class and I just started to tear up in the hall...none formed too well, none fell.......but I could feel them forming..why? Somebody help???"
Right now, I feel like I'm in depression. I'm not sure why...somebody has talked to me saying that it's some kind called idiopathic which is caused by something unknown. Can you help me on my life journey? I don't want to be labeled. Like my siggy says, I feel like I'm marked for my death...I've used that quite a bit today........but I feel like I have and I can't get out of it. One of you, my friends, has seen what I've been through...I didn't mean to lie, I didn't know how to honestly answer it...but it is true that I'm not feeling well...and I'm scared for my life..I don't want this. I don't want to become suicidal either. So I'm asking all of you, all of those who are my friends, all of those who are reading this...please help me with pleasant thoughts? I don't like to be ignored...no one does.......but I really Really REALLY don't want to become suicidal...and I'm unsure if I will or not...just help me?
Love always[[no matter the outcome]], Kay.
Snorlax says NO · Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 03:17am · 1 Comments |