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	The clouds so far ahead...remind me once of you...
	The clouds so far ahead...remind me once of you...


Mood~Shifting from Undescribable Rage to Nice and back again in 5 seconds flat!~ Music~Some sort of Techno~ Its a pure miracle...an absolute random instance of devine mercy...that I have not taken it upon myself to destroy everything within a ten or more mile radius around me. I've been in a rather destructive mood with periodic mood swings of kindness. I feel like I'm shifting from one side of me that likes nothing better than to cause as much pain and terror as possible. Then to the other side that is kind and considerate, concerned for all and other such niceness. Then there is the middle which i am most always. A cynical, sadistic b*h that can be nice if she chooses. But in them all I find a certain sadness. Can it ever be redeemed? <center>Why must I be? It turns out that there is nothing but shadows A formless entity Devouring everything The abyss at the end of the river Turns out to be my heart Into nothing Unto everything The gates let loose an exodus Together on to the next The ones that come full circle All those that know the river They join me in my spectral paradise To witness the end As will they all So they leave me to this eternity As my blind eyes stare after them I wait for you to come To me you bridge the gap but you just keep inside Once so long ago I lounged upon that shield And laughed at the silly things So innocent I their existence They floated from its side But now I press against it If only just to know As I have had my masks I know the broken glass But as those far off clouds That drift so serenly above me I know that like those too You are far from me now And all I see are shades of midnight stars As the shattered pieces that are ever know my name Stab me from inside as I lay down tonight to sleep</center> Paranine** · Thu Oct 28, 2004 @ 02:21am · 2 Comments


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	Wow...what's the cause of all of these rather strong mood swings? Something bothering you, Kain? Offline Viirage · Community Member · Thu Oct 28, 2004 @ 02:54am


	Of course not! I'm just peachy dandy! 3nodding Offline Paranine · Community Member · Fri Oct 29, 2004 @ 12:55am

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As I remain
Forever Dreamless
Bound eternal
To your memory

You are not as horrible as your thoughts, you are only as horrible as your actions

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