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The Fox Is Nothing More Than A Watcher....
Yoshaku Archive Poem: Finally Like A Fox
It's just funny to think about my sorrow
As a perfect reason to live again
My dark eyes of green, red with anger
Of what I know I will lose in the end.

To fear is just a statement of nothingness
As courage a stupid speck of dirt to the soul
In the long run there really is vacuity
Just like the souls of many in this earth.

Finally like a fox I am, so cruel, so unforgiving
The thought of unity is once again a myth
The thought of offspring not even showing
My heart a vacant void of blood flavored ramen.

Why ramen, you may ask?
It is simply cheep and worthless to the masses
A food that wouldn't satisfy the soul
A substance now artificially created in this earth.

My blood may be the most precious in this world
But when accompanied to that vile noodle
It is never a satisfying and delicious treat;
Not containing pleasures, hopes, and dreams of many.

Finally like a fox I am, So cold hearted, so lonely
With every passing second hating all
With a passion so pure and dark in me
Almost like the deadly black nicotine syrup of my lungs.

I trust no one or even care enough to show it
When I try I am on;y batted away
Considered a threat of great proportions
Thought as the killer who sneaks into the chicken pen.

Pushed away because I think diffrent of the world
Because my mental advantage in negativity
Left me with no real heart to spill to them
Or even to show that they are well with me and all.

Finally like a fox I am, so loyal, so trustworthy
Every passing day a reminder of debt
Debt owed by all who needed me once
Only to be stabbed in the back where no more is seen.

I only wished for one to completely let me descend
And land into their arms of consern
To be caressed like the fox I am
To be insured that same safety I've seen given others.

Every breath of kind words and acknowledgement
A wasted tear in the end for me
I will not whimper or grieve when I disperse
I will only be humiliated that I ever tried hard for nothing.

Finally like a fox I am, So broken, so wounded
A natural Julius Cesar of canine proportions
To be stabbed instead only in the heart,
With only their intent of letting me die slowly.

So hard one tries and yet fails to be great
For even another I have become for them
With only results of worsening anguish
Every dagger more sever than the last to puncture.

But the canine wasn't murdered out of fear
Canine Cesar was destroyed for lesser reasons
He was shattered for nothing at all
He was only ruined for the pleasure of the kill!

Finally like a fox I am, so dark, so angry
The shards of glass broken away
Trashed with everything else
Only to be left soulless and stupid.

To them all, I am nothing more that a mere animal
To the masses I have only been disgusting
To the earth I have been a wasted spirit
To their world I'm a speck of color to taint tjeir creation.

To them I am an imperfect seed of distate
One that should never be able to fruit,
One that should never be given a chance,
The one thing that should be considered a weed in a garden.

And why I am like a fox is this:
They keep to their ways and survival
They are an intelligent creature from many others
Above all, they keep to themselves in peace and tranquility.

Vulpi_Phasmatis
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  • User Comments: [2]
    MyMysticMind
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    Sun Mar 16, 2008 @ 10:38pm


    "so hard one tries yet fails to be great" very nice line but it is only true because we are what we believe we are, if we believe we failed then we have failed, but if we see ourselves as greatness than we will be great. We are our own judge and jury's we judge ourselves and become what we believe we are. We let others push guide us into that believe of who we are and half the time they show us negitive things to believe in. what then? i say we step above that and above them, we show ourselves how truely great we can be so that we may not fail to be great. You feel used by other people because nobody has helped you in return. Try not to concentrate on that, instead think of the difference u made in the world by helping them. Why concentrate on revenge ... it is pointless and gets you nowhere. instead of letting what other people think of u bother you so much why dont u live above that and grow happier and live your live to its fullest instead of wasteing your time on revenge. hopefully that person u are looking for will appear before you someday to give u that guidence that love you have been wanting, to take away all your pain and despair.


    Typo Positiv
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    Sun Nov 15, 2009 @ 10:03am


    This is a true story, by the way.

    I've had two foxes as pets in my life. The first was Boo, he was caught in a trap on hunting grounds by a good friend of mine, who had originally planned to send him to an animal preserve. Boo stayed with us for a good while, and we fed him and nurtured him. He didn't much like living in a house with dogs, though, and rebelled every chance he got. He was sweet towards us while we were awake, because we treated him well. He'd always been alone, and was still pretty young anyway. Eventually, we had to send him off to the preserve, because he just wasn't meant to be a pet, but he wasn't meant to be alone and shot either.

    The second was Spring. She was cold and mean for the first week we had her (I got her through the same friend). After showing her love, and having her sleep in my room with me, and feeding her regularly, and playing with her, and petting her for several months, she became much more like a friend. Not a pet, but another member of the family. With loyalty like a dog, and the intelligence and cunning of a cat, Spring was the best friend I had. However, it took all those months to gain her trust, and only then did she stop running the moment someone made a fast move, or stopped biting when anyone besides me got too close to her face. Patience can change the nature of even a fox, who is only alone because that is what has been demanded of them. However, when given the chance, even a fox can love, and find companionship. They just have to find trust first. And it takes someone different than most to establish trust with someone unwilling to change.


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