a while ago, during my first roleplay, i used to play as a character who had... preferences i don't actually have. i played on a vampire rp as a 'straight' person because i didn't know how big the community of... people like me was.
i became fast friends with this one girl, who seemed to not know what i was really like. because i was, well, playing a part, you see? it wasn't that i didn't like her... i just couldn't like her 'that way.'
well, she offered me a part in the sequel to the original thread, and she seemed to think that i could (or my character could) get involved with her 'that way.' i probably should have tried to, seeing as it is only a game, but i didn't want to lead her (or her character) on to something more.
i don't know if it's because she found out and has decided i'm not the kind of person she'd want to stay away from, or if she's just forgotten about me seeing as it's been a while. but... it appears that she has blocked me...
...for what i did, (you know who you are,) i am so sorry, and this incident sparked me to start being more true to myself, (at least online,) no matter what the cost.
for all out there whom i have offended with my lie, i am sorry. even if you hate me now, i will always remember you as my first rp friend and treasure that always--without you, i wouldn't be able to play the way i do today^^
~~Kai Kanzaki heart
 Angel Creature · Sat Sep 22, 2007 @ 07:35pm · 0 Comments |
