From extreme boredom to extreme I-havent-slept-in-weeks-ness, welcome to my life.
Improvments
Ya know, looking back at my old entries, I see that my gramer has improved. By like, a lot. However, I'm still the world's worst speller (I'm up there with my brother xp but thank all that is good that I have spell check) It's strange, all these things are happening and you don't really notice till you look back. Mabye that's why stuff like that surprises me. I don't like to look back, in fact, I hate it at times. For when I look back, I see the things I'm trying to forget, even if I'm not tryin to. I see my mistakes, my pain and my confusion that I so desperately tried to bury. But then, things like this would happen and I see the improvments that I made. I'm no longer the little girl that dosent know anything and just sits in her room all day. I'm still working on parts of me that may always be there. I'm still scared to voice my feeling to the people who know me. I just told Mom about my thoughts of runing away when I was 12 or 13. It wasnt the whole truth but she started crying and all that, so I think I'll keep it a secret from them. I just hope that one day, 5, 10 years from now, I can look back at the me now and see that I've become a new person, the real me and I will see all my improvments along with it.