For the last two weeks, i have felt more emtoions then i have ever had. i wish i did not feel these emotions, yet i am still consider human, which tears me aprt from the inside out. i wish i didnt feel anger or depression or "ha[[iness" for they are no more then mere thoughts people think up of to evade stress in their life.
on the walk home, a pimp and his hooker argure. on the other street, a gay white man argure with some black women that was speeding too fast. i did not care for the pimp, but the man and the women intrigued me. they both had children, but ignored all their feelings to fuel their own emotions to releive stress. i do not see the world in only negetives, i see the world as nothing more then a ride you wait out. i hate happiness and depression and anger. anger does nothing but cloud your feelings you wish you had. depression makes you want to kill yourself if it is strong enough emotion to. if you think im some ranting goth kid, too bad. i am just stating what i have gone through in my head all day and for the last two weeks. i just hope i can share my way with other people to know what it is like to act like they love someone, only to be torn apart from the same person they thought they would spend the rest of their life with.
on other news, i saw star wars episode III. it kicked major a**, and i think yoda is cute.
 Neoevil · Fri May 20, 2005 @ 03:13am · 1 Comments |
