My Beautiful Lie

• Artist: Finding Nami
• Description: This is an old poem that I wrote back in 7th grade. It has been rewritten. This was during a time that was tough for me. Kindergarten - 7thgrade. The "cool" kids went out of their way to make fun of me and make me feel bad about myself because I was different. I changed into this mean, don't take s**t from nobody, batch of cookies. That reputation still sticks to me. So now people are afraid of me. I don't want that, I just want respect.
• Date: 02/25/2012
• Tags: beautiful

~My Beautiful Lie~
By: Paula Raynor
8-15-11

Everything happens for a reason
That's all people ever told me
Why do such things have to be?
There are reasons why I hate that saying
It doesn't help anyone in the end
All it does is make people weak and quick to defend
And when they get knocked down
They act like everyone is trying to break them apart
But really they are trying to be in their heart
They refuse the help and refuse to get back up
In my case I act like everything's fine
Insanity grows slowly in my mind
I hold everything locked up tight
My life is beautifully lied
Although everything in me has died
I could be angry
I could be mean
I could pretend I have no one to guide me
But I refuse to be weak and refuse to cower
I hold everything locked away in a chained up chest
Just threw everything away and laid it all to rest
Throw up an act for all to see
Smile like I am truly adored
Subconsciously I feel abhorred
There is no way they can possibly understand
I very subtly lie to the world
Pretending to be a careless girl
Just leave me alone, leave me be
I wish to live like someone other than me
I wish to live in my beautiful lie.