• Im no hero, or a soldier, or even a warrior.

    ive lived with being under the impression that pain is bad.
    now i have taken those thoughts, thrown them out, and discovered a way to hold back and keep order.

    my dad tells me about his old days, and just going on a rampage.

    i swore, i wouldnt let that happen to me. but ever since i was diagnosed with depression, ive bottled every bit of anger i can find, but lately, i am feeling that bottle crack and chip with every time im withought purposely hurt, i inflict a little pain to remind me to hold it back. to me, it has worked for now, although, its not going to last forever.
    I have had scissors in stuck in my foot, glass shards going through my whole foot, and being beaten for being skilled in what i know how to do. im no nerd, nor dumb as dirt, but i dont understand why people hate other people. Live, Love, Prosper the way we all were intended to.

    I am angered and in need of advice.

    If you have any advice, please send me a message to cope with anger, and pain.

    Please, this is no joke. ive felt more pain in this life than i ever needed to. im not suicidal, so dont think im cutting myself. i pinch myself really hard... but yes, i do wind up dawing blood.

    im Distressed, Depressed, and i feel my life dwindling.