• I can feel it already,that I just don't belong
    amongst any of you,please don't tell me I'm wrong.
    I only fit in one place that I'll never go again,
    a place that has become barren,in the course of a year,
    no longer seems safe for me to hide all my fears.
    I'm just a loner,completely unable to make connection
    with any other human being;just obsessed,insane,
    completely filled inside with pain.
    Addicted to misery,masking the alone,never confronted reality,
    floating ignorantly through time,a mere shadow of a person
    just waiting to die,to scared,self aware to do it myself.
    Left to this madness to be tortured with infinite sadness,
    I'll never rise again to be cast down in callous
    mockery of indignation;It's not self preservation,
    I do not wallow in defeat,I simply see the lie's of life
    from a position that is unique,leaving me a kind of hatred
    that shows in my attitude how much I despise society.
    Rejected yet rejecting,exercises of self defeat repeat,
    bruising your back,raping your ability to stand out,
    your just as trapped as I am,at least I realize enough
    to leave you to your pursuit of acceptance.
    I will forget you,I will forget everything,
    there will be no recollection of the feelings I have for you,
    so give me back my heart,let it rest,reset and stop its bleeding,
    I will love again,how ever long it takes,if I have to wear a mask
    for years to sort through the average and the fake