• I had a dream that
    Three frogs
    Were floating in a barrel of soapy water
    Dead
    And the pet rat I keep in a cage
    On my floor
    Had multiplied
    Now having babies
    Who we're sweating
    And hot
    And struggling to breathe
    I had a dream that
    My boyfriend
    Raped me with a friend
    Underneath a blanket of stars
    And I kept saying no
    No, no, no
    But only to the friend
    Not to him
    And I'm wondering just what
    The hell
    These dreams could mean
    Are they side-effects of the birth-control
    I've just started taking?
    Probably not
    But I just can't get to sleep
    After these pictures fry themselves into my brain
    Sitting on my couch
    After I've woken
    Shaking
    Twisting the sheets
    For want of a cigarette
    Though I've never smoked in my life
    And I turn those frogs in my mind into sponges
    To clean up my weaknesses
    And short-comings
    And the things that I just can't tell you about yet
    Because I can't
    - I Can't
    Let you see them
    And I wont tell you
    That for three nights straight
    I've been dreaming of rats