• As I lay in bed, wondering to myself
    I thought about how many times I've been lonely
    How many hearts I've broke
    How many tears I've cried
    and how many fears I've provoked
    I thought about all the let-downs
    all my false hopes
    everytime I've been lied to
    how many friends lost to dope
    About how my life sucks
    and that it will never change
    I thought about the weather
    how many times it rains
    just at the right moment
    when I want to feel blue
    I thought about my family
    all the names I've forgotten
    and I wondered if they missed me
    or simply, I was forgotten
    I couldnt understand why there was such a gap
    between my memories
    and things like that
    I'd forgotten all the beatings
    and crying myself to sleep
    all the times they yelled
    screamed while I merely cried
    Just standing there watching
    wishing I could hide
    I then thought to myself
    why did things have to be so?
    Why did the world work this way?
    why didnt I know?
    A million questions buzzed through my head
    as I drifted off into sleep
    still wondering and puzzling
    I slowly began to weep