schizophrenia

• Artist: juvieboy
• Description: i have schizophrenia and this is a poem that explains sometimes wat i feel....
• Date: 12/07/2008
• Tags: schizophrenia parents

why do i hurt people so much in a way that i hurt
and hurt but they keep coming back tearing
down any wall that i have made hardened
by the drunken pasts of nights before


and they forgive me and comfort me till i can't understand this no more
till i can't dream and sleep without her no more
till i can't drink and i think about her all the time
prying through my mind trying to reach the inner "me"

but how could you even think i am not what i say i am
i am always who i say i am
there "is" nothing else there "is" nobody else
but me inside

then what are these voices i always hear inside
gnawing away at every fiber of my being
till i can't take it now more
till i let it out to a point where i hurt someone that try's to embrace me

is this why i hurt them
so i can let out this rage built up inside
if this is true then why do i deserve anybody at all???

Comments

[jolt_ julia]

this is really good. i know how you feel when you say you hurt people the way you hurt. i seem to do that a lot

[juvieboy]

well thnx all of you im striving to become a writer one day and in the future ill post more so thnx for reading my work

[AmaniPhoebe]

i feel what u mean by the build up of rage i have that too. i like it alot

[-SailorLillith-]

wow... i have never read somthing so good before. its really great and i love it. i can see where you're coming from and you have really got talent. you should write more...please? i would like to read more of your work.

[Kanashii Aiyoku]

I really like it. I especially like the depth of emotion felt in the poem over the struggle with scizophrenia and the problems it causes. Well done. 5/5