• The sound of the rain holds my attention
    The sound of the television on, drowns in the background
    The sound of the yelling sounds like an engine not working
    Starting up and gets louder and louder and gets hotter and hotter.
    The sound of my finger nail tapping against the window makes the time go faster.
    These noises make my head dizzy.

    And I am….

    The thought of my life being split into two, makes me want to hide.
    The thought of not being here again makes me hold tighter.
    The thought of what’s going to happen makes me want to hit pause.
    The thought of loosing control of my life makes me want to scream.

    So I do…

    I see the lamp post about to go out but keeps shining.
    I see the rain falling from the sky and it gets faster and faster, waiting to hit the ground.
    I see the warmth of my breath heating up part of my window.
    I see the light sky getting darker, more and more clouds coming and making it worse.

    Or should I say I am….