• I force myself to smile
    So you would never know
    My soul is breaking inside of me
    From my head down to my toe


    I force myself to smile
    But I know that it’s a lie
    I know I’m not really happy
    Every time I cry


    I force myself to smile
    But just behind my teeth
    I’m hiding a sad child
    That I don’t want you to meet


    I force myself to smile
    Even though I want to die
    I really want to be happy
    Instead I think of suicide


    I force myself to smile
    Even though I sometimes forget
    What it feels like to be happy
    I usually feel like s**t


    I force myself to smile
    I dwell in darkness all alone
    And I am still waiting
    For someone to take me home