• I think im in love. Plain and simply i honestly think im truely, amazingly in love. I beleive i'v already told about this guy...But im not sure. So i'll tell you. His name is Alex, hes part russian, he likes cats, i think he likes me to. He keeps asking me if i have a boy friend, and he keeps asking me for a hug. I, embarisingly enough, have never had a buy friend before... I thought i knew what it felt like to have somebody like this but i was completely taken by suprise. Today i could just feel my face turning as red as an African sunset. Some might say hes not the most handsom fellow, but he has a certain personality that just fits perfectly like a puzzle peice for me. But i HAVE to pass math cause i have no other way to talk to him in that class, if i lost him to i dont know what id do. My friend Niki resently moved, thoughs scars are still fresh. Oh, im even blushing right now just thinking about him... i feel so stupid, i thought i knew what love was like. i wrote so much about it, about how it can only lead to heart break. but now i have no choice but to take the leap myself. i know i should be more careful, but its like putting 100 milion dollars and a really good looking cookie right infront of you nose and telling you not to let your mouth water and not to think of what you could do with all that money then telling you that you cant have any of it, its not going to happen you would take the money eat the cookie realise the cookie is full of glass realise that the money is fake and then throwing you into a hole telling you that your the stupidest person alive as you fall do you death at the bottom of a bottomless sewer hole. ya, that sounds about right. i beleive thats exactly whats going to happen, i know whats coming but i need to experiance it for myself. this is like waxing your eye brows! you know its going to happen its going to hurt like a b***** but you really want some schnazzy eyebrows. i have some really weird ways of explaining things...oh about alex today we were drawing pictures together on a peice of recycled bannana paper made from bannanas. i drew an alien, he gave the alien ears, and i gave it a whole bunch of earings and peircings and a tee-shirt that says "I like rainbows!" i think thats all i needed to get off of my chest. gotta love forums full of people who dont care.