• We all knew it was gonna happen,perhaps for the better. Her pain ending as well as ours. No longer having to fret about her pain and run about trying to fix things we know will not work. She is in a better place now feeling better, but I'm sure he never wanted to let her go. . . ever. I think i could have read every one's mindat that very moment,we all missed her and we wonder where she is. Looking around every one's head bowed down,eyes blood shot,voices muffled and in a barely audible tone. I was just sitting there looking down at my shoes,trying to sort out my thoughts and keep my mind quiet. I remain still,trying to keep my mind focused on what that stranger was saying,then i found my head buried in his shoulders silently crying as he tries to reassure me that it would be alright and that she is better off now. Even though he has been married to her for 37 years, and his voices started to crack and tears flooded his eyes and they raced down his cheek. We both simultaneously looked over to the open casket. So lifeless. . . ..so cold so..lost. Was that it?Was she lost,not in her body,as it still lies there as lifeless as ever. Trying to reach us? Trying to tell us shes fine and shes here? I don't know. I stared so intently as if waiting for her to wake up and look confused and ask where she was. But as we said our final prayers i knew then and there she wasn't coming back. Never to look into her eyes and never to hear her voice again. Never to hug one last time and exchange goodbyes. She ... was forever gone.