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I have a double personality.
It's not my fault that I do.
It's the medication.
Adderal.
I have Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD).
I also have a high IQ.
I am the smartest girl in the seventh grade at my school.
I have an extremely hard time paying attention to anything in my classes when off of my medication, yet I'm told by my friends I am more fun and energetic than when I'm on my meds.
When I'm on my meds, I am basically a perfectionist-calm, think carefully, strict to rules, snap at slack-offs, smart-asses, or even the tiniest mistake, and pay attention to my grades more than to my social status, except for my oh so popular best friend who is just like me when I'm off of my meds.
The easiest way to tell the difference is in my smile.
I am always smiling when i"m off of my meds.
I rarely smile when I'm on my meds.
I don't want a double personality.
But I'm extremely nervous whenever I go to school without my meds.
Before I had my meds, I always got in trouble in class.
Now, with my meds, I am a teachers ideal student.
I rely on my medication.
Yet, I don't want a double personality.
I would like to be fun, energetic, and happy yet still pay attention and focus on my grades and social status at the same time, but that's not how it works.
I have to be on my medication for the rest of my life if i don't straighten up.
The thing is, my disorder is pretty strong on me at my age and it may get worse with age.
I really wish i could have one personality!
- by MarionetteOfAlice |
- Non Fiction
- | Submitted on 10/30/2009 |
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- Title: Me, Myself, and My Medication
- Artist: MarionetteOfAlice
- Description: This is the truth about me!
- Date: 10/30/2009
- Tags: myself medication meds double personality
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Comments (4 Comments)
- MarionetteOfAlice - 06/17/2010
- this is all true. not one lie. although i'm now going into eighth grade soon. the medication is legally prescibed for my disorder!
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- -light-sensitive- - 03/27/2010
- wow. i enjoy MY meds and alcohol, this is why i have problems. i do think im not an addict anymore cuz i havent had to time to do them. i havent even been to school in 2 weeks! cuz of my brother.
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- shaggy_girl94 - 11/17/2009
- it's great, I love the way you wrote it, and if it really is you, I'm sure you can over come it ^-^
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- ladykurdle - 11/13/2009
- Is this story about you, or did you make it up? When i read this, it made me cry, i can understand the sadness and frustation that the person in your story is feeling. Wow, what a hard life that person must have. Great job.
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