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i was only a child
fabricated and lied to
i thought he was my dad
but dads don't just walk away
they don't pass you and not look
i was left alone
with four older brothers
along with my mother
he left us with nothing
in a way I'm glad he's gone
i became the woman
i am today because of him
its all his fault
and yet i'm thankful
i may hate him and wish him dead
but still he's the one that left
not me not my mother or brothers
he ripped my heart into pieces
he shredded my thoughts
and scattered them on the ground
he left me confused
i was in a state of learning
i needed a father then
now i don't even care bout him
my brothers try to communicate
and so does he, but not to me
i refuse to be lied to
to be put behind again
i won't let that happen to me
not by him or by anyone
he has nothing on me
a sperm a seed what use is that
you only created half of me
and yet you destroyed all of me
i put most of the fallen pieces together
but some seem to be missing
i'll find them one day
i will fill the hole you left inside of me
you never cared or loved me
just my brothers never me
i was the lost one
i had complications
you couldn't handle it
so you played your own game
tore me and mom apart
left us to drown in our sorrows
but that's just what we didn't do
we got back up and started over
without you in your thoughts
we put you off. left you to die
but still, still your alive
i couldn't see who you really were then
but now i see everything your not
your not a father or a husband
you never cared bout us
you wanted to live
but instead you drown
you cry day to night
embark on an endless journey for light
but darkness surrounds you
you'll never find the light you want
i'm not sure if you know why
this is happening to you
you'll never understand the pain
that you brought us that day
the sorrow, the fright
you never could
you don't have the capacity to understand
your heart will swallow the demons
and release the angels
you'll never be free
not from me or anyone else
your a dead beat dad
anyone who knows you
knows it too
i know you don't want to admit it
i know you can't
its all true
the hell you caused
the hearts you lost
through drugs and liquor
everything is gone
you wasted your life
and still you want us back
but that will never happen
i won't let you ruin our lives again
i'll fight all i can
i'll put you in jail again
i sit here on my bed
listening to my phone ring
it goes on and on
i wish it would stop
i don't know why you waited
its been so many years
how long do i have to ignore you
to get you get the point
just to make you get a hint
ever since you left
when i was just a child
born to the light at age 3
how long will it take
for you to understand
that you mean nothing to me
you'll always mean nothing
i don't need your pity
i don't need your tears
i don't need your hugs
i don't want to hear your voice
we don't need you around
we never did
- Title: Dead Beat Dad
- Artist: Sqwinkers
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- Date: 10/10/2008
- Tags: dead beat
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Comments (6 Comments)
- sinnerx923 - 02/09/2009
- magnificent 50/10
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- SagiosMan - 10/10/2008
- wonderful
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- mucly - 10/10/2008
- very long but good poem
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- xHeartPlay - 10/10/2008
- nice
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- LDWC HEAD LEADER WOLF - 10/10/2008
- nice poem
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- xX_Purple_luvr_Xx - 10/10/2008
- stunning story,this is a great poem,you did a great job
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