• Intro
    I was born in the cold, heartlessness of late October. The 15th day. My mother was sick after my birth. My father had to take care of me. My name is October St Clair. I wasn't your average child. I had many problems but no one believed me when I told them about them. I believe I have depression and anger issues. Many don't agree because of how happy I look all the time. They were terribly wrong...
    Chapter One
    It was my first day of eighth grade when I tried to be like everyone else. Normally I was picked on for being what everyone calls emo or gothic. I tried to be like them and for that, they beat me much worse than before. I was the copy cat. The one who wanted to fit in but for some unnecessary reason, couldn't. Many told me my life was a mistake. That I was never meant to be born. I didn't want to listen or even see them anymore. Their faces haunted my dreams. The words they told me kept repeating in my head over and over. I wanted them to be gone. After what I did, I didn't regret it. I was just the same as the description of my birth month, cold and heartless.
    Chapter Two
    It was all my fault. Their parents came after me with knives and guns, threatening to kill me. They should've seen how scary they looked. I felt as if I was in a horror movie or even a nightmare and couldn't wake up. I wanted them gone. I repeated that to myself. That's why I did it, that's why I killed them all. Every single last one of them. I made sure they felt the suffering I left. I feel no regret for what I did. I feel as if my life is a whole lot better. I am free from them but, now im trapped within the closed in walls of a jail cell. I was waiting for my father to come get me but, after two years of waiting you learn to give up on those who said they cared for you.
    Chapter Three
    I heard of a place that cares for people who run and escape out of jails and juvy hall. I wanted to go there but then I remembered all the people I met here. I didn't want to leave them but I knew that if I didn't go now, they'd put me to my grave. So, as any smart teen would do, I ran for the greater good. Half way there I saw the man who abandoned me. The anger of betrayal and hatred boiled in me. I only made things worse for myself by doing this. All im going to tell you is that he is going to meet all of my tormentors.
    Chapter Four
    I got to the house for run away children and other types of people. I hated that more than my jail cell. Now that I have no parents, someone has to take care of me. That's what the people at the house told me. I questioned how they knew my parents but they never answered. They just gave me a room and told me that I could stay here. I stayed there for five months straight without leaving my room. I like small spaces now. I don't feel like im going to have to share my space with anyone. Sharing wasn't my best decision. I ate three times a day and slept for about five hours a day. I kept a journal and begun writing in it. The journal was the only place the true me could speak without fear of being laughed at or accused of things.
    Chapter Five
    "Today I met this girl named Sara. she told me a lot about the secret lies in the government. She told me that they are supposed to do something for bully victims. I told her that they never did anything for me and she smirked. She told me that they blame who funding on things that have nothing to do with it. She told me that she was once a therapist and that she could see that I have depression and anger issues. Finally someone who agrees with me. I like Sara. She's the only one who understands me and can calm me without shots to the arm or strapping me down to a chair." I wrote that as my first entry. I don't remember writing in it ever again.
    Chapter Six
    They found us. Arrested all of us, even the people running the house. Sara told me this house was illegal and that we could all go hard for this. We were all sentenced to five years in jail for the adults and six months in juvenile hall. This was the worst thing that could ever happen to me. At least I was put in the same cell as Sara.
    Chapter Seven
    Sara got out early for good behavior. I was alone in the cell because I had gotten into a fight with one of the lesbian girls in the showers. I cant take much more of this. Sara told me that she is going to find a crack in the system to get me out quicker. I was patient through my whole sentence. When I got out Sara was there waiting for me with her new car. She told me that she met this guy named Tom and she was deeply in love with him. I never believed in true love but if that's what Sara wanted then so be it.
    Chapter Eight
    Sara let me stay at her place for a long time. I was 26 when I left Sara's house to get my own place. I moved into the apartment right next to her. A few months later, her and tom got married and were very happy. I met this guy named Daniel. He is handsome and accepts me for who I am. He isn't afraid of me which I really like. I want to marry him. Me and Sara plan on going back to school once I get enough money. Back when I was first in school, it was free but now due to low income to the schools it costs money.
    *Chapters nine through eleven coming soon*